Thoughts on death..

Today, in this world, it seems a person's worth is only evaluated and portrayed after he or she dies. In a matter of minutes, I can read about the life of a 24 year old solider from Indiana, who was killed in Iraq. It seems as though reflecting upon a person's life after he has died, is nothing but a mere blink through his history, path in life, and memories. A man who had lived 86 long years, will only have a few people to tell his stories, to which they don't know 40 years of that life... Fourty years that will be forgotten.

I don't even know how to put this into words anymore, or what else to think about this. If I was to die today, I would have my friends and family to tell my story. But how many of them would choose to cry over me, instead of celebrate over me? Do we live life just to cry at funerals when our loved ones leave us? Strip away emotions, feelings, connections, everything that makes us soulful human beings. We are merely muscle, fat, blood, and organs. Our story will be told to all, when our bodies decide to turn off. Or perhaps the story of our once great life will be forgotten.

When a tree dies, it falls, and the earth covers it and brings it back to its beginnings. With such natural signs of death and rebirth, I have to keep asking questions about our own mortality and what we are so afraid of. Are we afraid to see what's next? Or are we afraid of taking that last breath? Are we afraid of that last thought? Or are we excited every day to be one step closer to our final destination.

As I pick up and leave for another place, I can't help but to curiously answer these questions. This step in my life, how insignificant it is to anyone else, will matter the most to me, and it is a step that I hope will be told when my days end. Every day, and every step I take, will hopefully be remembered in the footsteps of time. I'm not here for the sake of human kind.. I'm here to appreciate the nature I was born into, and will eventually be given back to.. This world will remember Kevin Fitzpatrick.. I guarantee it.