Then I feel .. pretty blissfully

Wow, have I been a headcase lately... just look at what I've been writing. Saying desperate goodbyes to friends, claiming I know all about god and shit like that.. I don't know anything more than the person next to me. We're all just people on this planet for a short time. We live, we die.. and then... ???????? The "and then" is what I suppose I've been searching for for so long.. but eh, what's the use? Searching for the "and then" keeps me thinking about the future too much, when in fact I should be thinking about how I could be making this moment better. Right now, I'm preparing to graduate with flying colors, making a project that I've been waiting to make for 2 years. I've been putting off graduating because I wanted my last project to be special... to be a masterpiece that I can look back and say that college was worth it.

I've been buying a lot of books online, trying to increase my need for literature. I'm a horrible reader.. I read the same paragraph like 10 times before I finally get to the next one. I'm bad at reading because my mind wanders too much. One sentence can turn into an adventure in my imagination.... which makes reading novels impossible.

I'm off track.. What i mean is that.. I've been a little over the top lately.. a bit too dramatic, and now I'm done doing that for the meanwhile.. and I'm about to step into the next point in my life. Which includes a huge movie project, new people, and a new future. Look at me.. i'm Mr. Optimistic... wooohooo... let's make a movie.