I got to thinking

Looking at pictures of the people I love, I realize that one day I will have to say goodbye to each and every one of them. This isn't going to be a depressing post, I promise. More of like, a boost of something yummy... something like buttered toast and chocolate milk. Yes.........

Funeral is a funny word isn't it? It's like the sound of the word funeral brings everyone into an uneasy state of mind. Perhaps more than others.. But the reason I bring this is up, is because I thought about that one day, that one solitary moment in time when I myself will have a funeral. Got me thinking about how many people I know, it also got me thinking about how many people I could have the possibility of affecting through my actions.

I gave a talk one time at a catholic retreat for high school seniors, about Being Christian. What the hell did I know, and who was I to tell people how to be Christians. But I thought about it differently.. it's not about being christian, it's about acting good towards others.. Strip the titles of christian, and what you get is Being A Decent Individual.. I told the seniors that it's not about sitting back and just observing your faith, but exploring it, and living it each day just in the way you act to people. Whatever you believe in, believe in it hull heartedly.. and share that passion with other people. The world needs a fire lit inside of it, and it only starts with us.

So then this got me to thinking that on the day I die.. I hope I am remembered by the people in my life in a good way. I want a celebration on the day I die.. I want people to say that the future was a helluva lot brighter since the day I was born. Man that sounds egocentric.. but I mean it all in heart.. I hope I am remembered for helping the people I love.. I hope that people tell stories of how one day some kid drew a bunch of weird art, and it inspired a million people.

Or perhaps I'll outlast all of you.. and have to say crazy things like this at all your funerals. I must be insane to think things like this. Why doesn't anyone else ever talk about funerals, or death, or scary things like that.. are there others out there who aren't freaked out about this.. ? Honestly... the lord himself gave me an odd brain. And every time I pray, or what not.. I thank him for this nutty mind of mine.. he did a great job.

pssssssssssst.. it's my birthday today