My thoughts were so loud...

I couldn't hear my mouth. It seems as though my subconscience thoughts are talking to me. They've appeared in dreams lately, and are trying to tell me so many things. I can't quite comprehend what they are all saying, but hopefully soon I will be able to interpret them. Maybe this is what the holy spirit feels like... you know they say the day the holy spirit showed itself, every person around was speaking in different languages. Imagine what that must have been like.. and now cram that event into my brain. There are two kevin's I'm trying to talk to right now.. the kevin that wants to get out and explore and do... and the kevin who wants to indulge in life's luxuries. I'm not sure which one is connecting to me more.. but something's gotta give. This personality is split like the people of America. Two totally opposite sides not wanting anything to do with the other side. And I'm in the clouds above it all, watching this brain unfold. There's trouble underneath this skin, there's a wilting seed inside this core...

I've been confused since I was a kid. I was the one who wouldn't stop asking why. Mommy... why am I so confused? [Do you see people... do you understand the weirdness I have to deal with?]