Get out of my head

How in the world can I disassociate myself with the thought of ever getting her back? How can I crush this thought that keeps driving into my brain? I told her tonight how I felt, and now I feel even worse. She's gone, I should just get the hell over it. Anybody agree? Ever have to watch someone you love say goodbye? I fucking hate it.. She'll be my first true love as long as I live. I wish I could stop these thoughts, they're just making me upset. How come I want her back so much? I'm going to look back at all this in a few months, laugh it off, and then realize I was a complete moron. Catch you on the flipside.. as the saying goes.